- person: how long does it take to get there?
- me: 3 songs
Like…I actually did it.
I fell in love all over again.
I feel even better than the last time.
She listens without judging.
I’m not afraid to tell her anything at all. I don’t have to lie or sugar coat anything. I’m completely myself around her. It’s not like I had to take time to get comfortable around her, it was immediate.
I’ll never forget our drive home from our first date. Drake “Own it” was playing and at some point in the song I told her that I like to yell the lyrics. Then giggled cause I was holding back on me actually doing it. She turned the song up to full volume and said “go ahead and scream the words”. So duh, I did. There I am screaming at the top of my lungs this song and she’s just letting me. I didn’t feel awkward at all. Idk it just felt right.
Then we stayed the car until 5am talking about…everything. The conversation never got boring. The entire “nothing was the same” album played over and over again…we didn’t get tired of hearing it.
I finally invited her in my house. Emphasis on I INVITED HER. Not once did she hint going in herself. As if she was ok with just sitting and talking to me no matter the location.
From there everything just felt right.
She’s not threatened by my past at all. It really doesn’t matter who or what I did before her. She’s only interested in what she can do to make sure she’s not just a thing of my past. I don’t know this because she told me. I know because she shows me. Her actions are everything. Even the little things like her going grocery shopping and buying all my favorite things.
Everything is mutual. The feelings. The level of thirst. The desire for sex. The love for food. The future we strive for. Just everything.
She’s my everything.
I feel like this doesn’t even amount to half of what I feel for her. But I guess this was a nice start.